‘Member Me?

If you have followed me and or my blogging at all, you know this one thing neva-eva changes: Sometimes I have a lot of shit going on and don’t write.

I told you I won Tinder, so as a lesbian, naturally that means I needed to move in with her as soon as possible. Nope. Not kidding.u-haul

So as you can imagine, planning, packing, moving, job hunting, interviewing, daycare searching and touring, school registering and touring, etc. and so on take up a considerable about of time. During this time, nothing in the world has been more important than just being and allowing all of us to adjust and assimilate and enjoy our new life rolling 6 deep.

All four kids are strong. All four are crazy. All four are stubborn and silly and vain and sometimes selfish. They are also fun and sweet and kind and loving. There is nothing more beautiful than seeing how much they take care of each other and just genuinely adore each other. I’m not saying that none of them every throw a punch or yell or send their mothers rushing toward the wine rack at exactly 8:10. I’m just saying they love and we are building a really beautiful life. I may not have written damn near anything all summer, but I had the most amazing summer.


A Thankful Goodbye

Sometimes in a relationship, a hundred things could be totally right, but if 5 big things are totally wrong, it just might not work. Such is the story of me and the one commonly known on this little blog as “Girlfriend.” In fact, at this particular moment, “Girlfriend” hasn’t been my girlfriend for almost a month and a half. I have posted several things since our breakup, including A Little Bit Country. I wasn’t trying to hide that sometimes relationships fail. Basically anyone who’s had one ever knows that. My reason was two part: A. There was a very small possibility of a reunion. And B. honestly, I just didn’t know what the fuck to say.

I despise airing my own dirty laundry and don’t enjoy when other people do it either. At the same time, most of us live so publicly, people know who other people date, when, where, and even how. So when shit goes south, it’s tricky to  pretend they never existed. I can’t just delete every post in which she was referenced and be like, “What?… Who?…” That was a real relationship with real love, and real value, and real experiences. I acknowledge that. But now it has come to a close and I acknowledge that too.

There is no need to get into the “dirty laundry” portion. You already know. We had some rad times and some bad times. We fought, and argued, and said shitty things, and cried about it. Repeatedly. She did  always said we’d never make it. The first girlfriend is never the last. Maybe she was right. I don’t know. My romantic heart hopes she’s wrong, but who’s to say?

Guys, the thing is, no matter how much I sometimes wanted to totally punch her in the face, that relationship was important – and extra important for me. She found me sort of by accident right when I was newly separated and ready (for the first time ever) to openly date women (and so freaking excited about that.) She let me explore and she genuinely seemed to enjoy watching fresh-outta-the-closet me discover every friggin’ lesbian cliché possible. She was also there when I called my mom and let me cry after my mom cried. She set up play dates for my littles with lesbian mamas. She told me that yes I could keep blogging all my fashion and mommy blog things and have a lesbian blog. For all of this and more I will always appreciate her.  I hope we really do remain friends. She was not the girl for me, but she definitely helped me become the girl I’m meant to be and I wish her the best in all she ever does. Even if she never takes a chance on the “new girl” ever again. 😉


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My Evolving Life

You guys!

I promise I am totally writing out the whole story: The end of my marriage to Morgan, the beginning of my love with Dawn, how that impacts my little duckies, making a life and home in a small two bedroom apartment, the coming out story… ALL. OF. IT. But that’s sort of something that will be a bit like a keepsake to me. It’s life and it’s real and I know that not only will other readers read it, I will come back to it over and over again. So that post needs another day of writing and editing. Oh hell, who and I kidding? At least the whole weekend of writing and editing. Besides, right now I have this totally hot blonde meeting me in 18 minutes.

(Yup. I am so watching the clock…)

So with that in mind, I leave you with some pics of one of my first adventures with Dawn and my babes. Have a great weekend!


New Life, New Blog.

Good Lordy it’s been a minute since I’ve done any of the real life blogging. I missed it terribly, but there’s this rule about how working moms can only have so many hobbies. Roller derby and Netflixing kept ranking higher. I mean, there was also this whole big technical situation, but who wants to be bored with that. And let’s be honest, it was really the Netflix and their constant release of new episodes that got me. The only thing the technical sitch affected is the fact that I had to start fresh rather than just plug along at lifestyledbyelle.com. Oh well. It was getting a bit full and slow without a greater financial investment anyway.

So here we are. You, bored reader. Me, newly single and then unsingled mother of two, roller derby queen wannabe, account executive, recently out lesbian, weirdo Libra. Welcome. I hope we can be friends.